Loosing weight, my weight loss journey part 1
Hello my friends, I tell ya nothing can really prepare me for this post. “NOTHING.” I tremble a little, my heart pounds, and I begin to panic a little as my fingers drum the key board… EEK.. I am doing it! I am letting it ALL OUT THERE! I figured if I am going to share this information with you all, open up entirely, bare it all, (so to speak) Well then, I must do it right! I must DIVE RIGHT IN.
I have my “big” (no pun) panties on so here we go….
Since I am diving right in, I must dive DEEP! You see I was once an aspiring model 14 plus years ago… Tall- 5’10, 123 lbs., and a size 4. I never in a million years would of imagined that when I got pregnant I would gain 75 lbs. with my first baby. Yikes! WHAT? I would then continue to go up and down on the scale ending up with 4 kids total, and weighing in at a
staggering & humiliating 229.8 lbs. Ugh, WHAT again? Yep’ that is what I weighed 4 plus months ago when I finally took the scary plunge to step on a weight watchers scale and join WW. I remember driving home in tears. How did this happen? what is wrong with me? I felt failure, and I felt so ugly. I thought, well my babies totally contributed to this weight gain, but they are not totally to blame. Weight runs in my family, on both sides. Plus eating whatever I wanted and truly NOT CARING, was a huge contributor. Chocolate and sweets… I digress. I also used to be in dance and on the drill team back in HS. My mom would joke that I could eat a bag of Doritos and shake a leg and stay a size 4. It was true, my metabolism was in hyper speed back then. NOT ANYMORE! So as much as I still love to shake my budonka donk butt, I HATE exercising. However, with that said when I do go for a power walk, kick butt on the elliptical, head to zumba, or do some fun Just Dance 3 with my fam. I LOVE IT! I love the feeling of kissing my fat cells goodbye (they were never invited anyway? HELLO?) burning calories, and sweating hard. I new I had to get in excersize 3-4 times a week… and I do! YAY! Honestly, the hardest part about exercise is getting there. Once you are there, and doing it… the ending feeling is AWESOME!
So as of today I am down 22 lbs. YAY!!! Its a milestone but I have {50} more to go… I am feeling so much better about myself. I just love how much better you feel in your clothes, and in your own skin. For most of you who follow me on FB you know that we got a horrid virus and we ended up having to do an entire new restore on our computer. Therefore loosing all our photos for the last 4 years in Picasa. super sad ;( That said, I don’t have any before pictures to show you the comparison from then to now.
However, I am sharing some photos with you today. I truly do not like seeing myself in these photos. I am still so big, and I just don’t like seeing myself look like a swollen version of the real me underneath. Blah. However, I told you earlier that I am going to dive in, therefore sharing info. that scares the doodie out of me… NOW YOU ALL know, and you get some pictures too.
I can honestly say that I am in this for good, with lots and lots of water too. I can’t wait to share more pictures as more weight comes off.
I want “you” all to know that the road may be narrow and long, but its there, and it will be there! Just stay on that path, and if you have to stop for a drink or a nap under the tree. Well do it! Then get back up, dust yourself off, and keep truckin on. When you get to the end of that long, up and down, narrow road…. the reward
“will” be there..
Great, great, GREAT post. I have those same struggles except I REALLY hate to exercise and have more to lose but I am on the front end of the journey – I’ve lost 12 pounds so far using what I learned in WW all of the years I tried and then quit. Looking forward to seeing your succeess along the way!
I am super-proud of you Jen! Through COM I feel like I know you personally. From the pictures, I think you are beautiful just as you are but I understand the need to “bounce back” after kiddos. You are an inspiration to us all – in crafting and now in this – you’ve motivated me to get up and move too! Stay strong and know that you have lots of support from your fans! 🙂
Congratulations on your weight loss!!!!
And it’s refreshing to see someone put it all out there 🙂
Continued success and constant support coming your way!!
Good for you for sharing this journey. I think that’s the scariest part. You can do this!! Can’t wait to see all you’re progress.
Taylor
http://www.theplumverbena.con
I tried to leave a comment but I don’t think it went through. So here is attempt #2. Thanks so much for sharing this, Jen! You are SO inspiring! We will all be rooting you on. You are gorgeous too! Look at you with all that confidence in those pictures!!
I feel your pain. I have always struggled with my weight. I am 5’4″ and rit now I weigh 227. At my highest I weighed 300 when I gave birth to my first son 11 years ago. When he was about 6 months old I started counting WW points. It took about two years but I got down to 145. I felt great. Of course I knew I could loose more, but I hovered at this weight. Then I got pregnant with my second child and put on 60 lbs. I carried an extra 20 after that baby. Then baby #3 came along with another 60 lbs an an extra 20 lbs. So now I had an extra 40 lbs to deal with. Then it started. The creep up. I am a stress eater and as you know there is a lot of stress in this life. I like food. I don’t like vegetables. I don’t like exercise. I have tried WW online twice and still gained weight. I am so unhappy with my weight, but feel so powerless to fix it. What stinks is that I lost 130 lbs before and now all for every 2 lbs I loose I gain 4. Just want you to know you aren’t the only one with the struggle.
I just found this postie and I think you are beautiful. I know this is hard work and a lot of anxiety is dragging itself along for the ride. That is just part of the struggle of life in general sometimes!
You are amazing and wonderful!
Just know that you are being prayed for every day. Praying for strength and energy and good healthy habits for the rest of your lovely life.
Hey, it took you many years to get to this weight and it will take time to get rid of it, but you will. We are standing by your side to tell the chubbs “good-bye forever!” and never come back. Your kiddies will learn a lot too about determination, dedication and good habits.
Bless you, dear bloggieland friend
and bonks too
Way to go!!! I’m on the same boat and NEED to lose the weight. You really motivated me to take the plunge. I wish I had the courage to make the same type of post. May all of your comments inspire you to continue on your journey and gain back what you feel is lost. You look amazing. Keep it up.
Hugs Samantha
Way to go Jen! You look fabulous. Love that your nails match your pants!
So proud of you. Twenty-two pounds is amazing! I just signed up for WW last week. I hope I can kiss my fat cells goodbye as well as you are!
I’ve lost 70lbs … No sugar no flour. It works, and is with the effort. Weigh and measure all food too. No snacking!! Congratulations and keep it up!
Your post could not have come at a better time. Have been a WW member for almost 6 months and have lost 20 pounds. Lately I have been stalled only by the choices I have been making. Thank you for the encouragement to get back on track!
Jen, You go girl-I am on the road myself to loss weight and this will be a good start to have a fellow blogger doing it also. Stephanie
Well I think you look great right now but that’s awesome that you are shooting high with your goals! I have lost 20 lbs so far this year with 20 more to go. This is an inspiring post, hopefully we can all reach our healthy weight goals together!
GOOD for you! Thanks for sharing your struggles and we’ll be here to support you. 🙂
Hugs,
Tracy
Dang kids, they will get ya overtime 🙂 You look great already and I look forward to hearing about the rest of your journey! WW was great for me when I started to lose weight, keep up the hard work!
Way to go! 22 pounds down is an amazing start!
I myself decided to make a change. A year ago I started exercising and watching what I eat. I am not down almost 60 pounds with about 20 (or 30) to go.
It’s not easy, but trying is the first step!
Keep up the great work!
Proud of you for losing the weight and for being brave enough to post about it (including pics)! You are beautiful and inspiring! I lost nearly 40 lbs. last year then just quit with my healthy new lifestyle when the holidays rolled around now back almost where I was. I just started back yesterday walking and eating right so I’m glad I read this! I know you’re gonna do it and I am too!!!
That is so amazing. You’re so brave to put it out there. I feel the same. I remember you in hs. You’re we’re a little too skinny then. I think you look fabulous now! Keep working girlie! You are inspiring! I need to lose 40 to get to my goal weight. I lost 10 then we moved and I stopped exercising and ate whatever I wanted. I need to get back on track. Keep me motivated!!!!
Congratulations!! 22 pounds is such an achievement! I think you look stunning but what really matters is how YOU think you look. I’m in the same boat (but I have no babies to blame) and I’m very inspired to make a change. I’ve been considering joining WW and this might just be turning point for me. Thank you so much for sharing!
Can I just tell you how much I love you for posting this?! I, too, hate seeing the inflated version of myself and am working on dropping 60 pounds. Keep up the good work!! You are awesome and inspiring, sister!
Girl you totally got this! I’m working on my weight loss journey as well and totally post about it on my blog. I shared a funny story a few weeks ago here: http://www.travisandjessicacox.com/2012/06/weight-loss-wednesdays-and-math.html
I totally get how you feel. It’s definitely nerve racking putting yourself out there! I’m totally rooting for you! You should come by and visit sometime and we can support eachother!
You are so beautiful!
You look great! Keep up the great work and I totally miss you!
You look fantastic well done you.
I’m in the exact same boat as you. I just left my Doc feeling miserable yesterday after seeing the number on the scale.
I mean this nicely, but you wear it well. You do not look “big” in your photos. You look awesome, girl!
Good luck on your weight loss journey!
Girl, are you kidding? You are rocking those red pants, I would have never taken you for someone uncomfortable in her body. I know your story, because it is mine. Although I could have never been a model, I also had a dancer’s body (and lucky metabolism!)back in the day. I have found that joining the ymca has been a really affordable option for us and I actually look forward to exercising because I get a little break, the kids have a great time, and I get to shower in peace!
awesome post girlie – you rock it! very encouraging!
SO PROUD OF YOU FOR BEING SO OPEN AND HONEST! 🙂
Congrats! I just started chronicling my own weight loss on my blog, so the timing for this post is amazing! Thanks. Oh, and I also dropped by to let ya know that I liked your blog so much, I nominated you for the “Versatile Blogger” award! Stop by my post at the link below to get the image and rule, and become a part of this award blog hop! Congrats 🙂
http://lesliemarquezdesigns.blogspot.com/2012/07/versatile-blogger.html
You are beautiful just as you are! But congrats on getting healthier for you and for your family! I’m in the same boat – I have about 30 pounds to go after my last pregnancy. WAY TO GO!!!
LOVE this post! 22 lbs is such a great start:) If you lost that you can get to your goal! It definitely is a hard thing to do by having to loose weight. I’ve just recently started my weight loss journey also and have lost 14 lbs and only 46 more to go! This journey for me is more so of changing my mindset to think in a different way about my lifestyle(food and exercise). Thanks for this post it motivates me even more to stick with it and keep on a going:)
22 pounds lost is an awesome accomplishment!!! I have been trying to lose the same 20 pounds for a couple years now. Thanks for the inspiration!
Congrats on the weight loss!!!! I was always a size 2….weighed 98 pounds when I graduated 25 years ago…..I gained a little in college but 6 years today I had my daughter and I also gained 60+ pounds. I joined WW in October but I’ve only lost 12 pounds so far. I am so happy for you. Hopefully we both stay strong and see the weight fall. Good Luck!!
xoxo Lindy
You go girl! I’m looking forward to seeing an already beautiful woman radiate even more beauty.
~Bliss~
Congrats on the results of all your hard work! It’s obvious from the photos how great you feel. I love how you’re rocking the colored skinny jeans. You look amazing!!!
You’re so beautiful, Jen. Keep it up, I’m proud of you!! XOXO
ps: Yay that you’re wearing the ring from me and Kris!! (;
wow impress to your determination and the courage to share it here! good luck i’m sure if you do it for you you’ll be able to make it!
By the way, your pictures are amazing, you’re beautiful the most important thing is that when you look in the mirror you find the woman in front on you amazing! (well i know easy to say… mother of triplets i can tell!!!)
good luck, wish you the best result!
Jen you look amazing!! I love this post, and let me say this again, YOU LOOK FABULOUS, girl!
Not to mention now that I have met you in person, and I know you are such a sweet person, makes me wanna congratulate you even more. 🙂
Great job, Jen! I had a similar story….ate anything I wanted and did great until after I had my son! I joined WW Online last year and went from a 16 to an 8! I found that first blog post hard but also helpful (http://craftyimaginings.blogspot.com/2012/01/finding-old-me-in-new-year-with-weight.html)….kind of nice to get it out there (even with my fat pictures)! Congrats!
Love the sassy photos. They say I can do it!
You are gorgeous Jen! Congratulations on the weight you have already loss. That’s a huge accomplishment! We too are on a goal to loose weight and I totally admire your openness. We will be rooting for you!
You are super cute! You should be super proud of yourself. I myself am on a mission to get this weight off. Like you having kids has been less than nice to my body. Good luck to you & great job! Hugs! 🙂